Recently I'v been getting nervous in crowds, in class and even with my friends. I have never really thought anything of it I just put it down to having low self esteem and confidence. Then I realised it was more then that I used to love reading in my head and aloud but now it comes to school and it's my turn to read I get so worried and stressed I feel like crying. Thinking that everyone is judging me like everyone in the class room are judges that judge everything that is bad about you and pick in it. This may seem like I'm over reacting but I'm not I have tried everything I know of reading aloud to myself making new friends ect but I don't know how to get my confidence back.
I guess my confidence was knocked majority when I got bullied in year 3 till year 5 but I haven't been able to build it back up not even a little bit. Sometimes I feel like not even my friends know who i am truly and I know this sound bad bits it's true. I feel like my friends judge me and talk about me behind my back.
You should feel confident around your friends but i don't. You should be able to fling some clothes on to go meet them but when I meet them I'v chosen for hours on end what I'm wearing and my makeup. This is when I get asked to meet them.
You see another reasons why I think my confident isn't building back up is because they ask each other to hang round or go to town but not me. It almost feels like there embarrassed to be seen me. Like they think not aloud to be seen with her she got fat when she was getting bullied and still hasn't lost the weight she put on. I know this sounds dreadful but this is how I feel.
Bye xx
Question- do any of you guys feel this way?
Quote- feel good in your own skin!
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